it's suck..it's hurt...it's disappointing..

lme da x mrapu kt blog nih..
ys i'm not a good writer.ak sndri xske bce ape yg ak tulis..
ape yg mmakse ak bukak blog nih??? slame ni skit pnye mlas. nk tulis2 bagai.
tp seriously i need some way to release all these thing. ak rse ni je la tmpat ak muntah kn ape yg terbuku nih.
ape lg yg ak ad skrg?? laptop ni je la kwn ak. real kwn2 sume jaoh.. in fact skrg ni trase 'lost' sgt2.
words 'friends' 'bestie' 'friendship' seems didn't bring any meanings. buat mse ni, tu lah yg ak rse. knape?? ntah...da rse mcm 2 nk wat mcm mn.
ak manusia biase.
rase ape lg? besides from feel 'lost', rase tersisih, rase ktinggalan, rse mrah, rse gram, rse kecik jek. last nye..klua lah words lain.."yla..sape la ak ni..." hrm ys..sape la ak.
hati ni terase, smakin mgecik (kcik hati), tsinggung, ntah ape2 lg ntah. for sure sume nye negative!
baik sgt ke ak smpai mcm dprkotak katik kn..ke..jahat sgt ke ak sampai dtggalkn..
ntah la. selfish slah...caring pon slah... last2 sndri jgk yg ssh. mcm mn? percaturan ape 2?

do i need to be selfish in d future? do i need to be caring for all the time?
ad la jgk rse 'mcm ni' before this..but this the Worst! ak x pnah rse 'mcm ni'.
ilang slera..not in mood..loya..nk muntah..
msalah cinta pon ak masih slera lg nk mencekik. but this matter mmg effect besa kt ak. besa ke? x.. tp knape ak worst sgt??? x tw lah npe...x tw!!!!!!
if there any solution????
I HAVE NO IDEA
so far..i'm blank..x tw ape yg nk jd, bkal jd in d future.
LOST...HILANG....ALONE..